How I feel right now

I was a fool to say "may I sit back and enjoy the show." What a fool I am ... and what a foolish thing to say.

Things are not going as I planned. Things are more hairy than I anticipated.

I am happy though to be experimenting with my emotions and with issues, rather than going through a mental spiritual checklist, checking off items where I have offended or have not offended.

Although it is difficult, and in some sick way--even as drained as it makes me, I am some what okay with going through what I am going through with my friend.

Please pray for him, me, my dad and my mom. We have lots of things to hash out.

What a fool I am!

On with the show....